What do I have but what once was mine
that now is yours, and all of it now
How I wish you’d give it back
with you in tow
so that you’d come back to this part of me
All of that gone
down inside of you
a piece of me, so meaty and with heft
enough for me to not wish that weight upon anyone
except you
And now here I sit a-waiting
and a-clamoring sitting still
wishing waiting hoping for you to come back
dragging that weight of mine you took away and claimed
and rightfully so
I only ask the peace of that piece
gone now with you and only you
put back by your hands with intent to cling still
and maybe perhaps, if perhaps you would
hold it in place and stay with me
and I’ll hold yours as well
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Okay, this is A+ trolling right here. Let’s just say that the overlap in the Venn diagram between people who are fond of Ginuwine’s “Pony” and dubstep detractors is probably quite large, and this song basically trolls every single person in that category. Bravo, Ms. Fenty.
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Happy October, Tumblr. This is a month of horror, scary posts, ghosts, goblins, Steve Niles, Stephen King, The Walking Dead, even the Walken dead. It is also All Hallow’s Read. You familiar with that? Neil Gaiman made this video to explain it to you. In brief, this month is the month to give someone a book, specifically a scary book. You should click on the link just to hear the man speak. He has a lovely voice. I bring this notion of All Hallow’s Read to you because I am a horror writer myself, and I have two books. If you look upwards just slightly, you’ll see the covers to The Icarus Void and a ruthless echo. Both of these novels are available over on Amazon.com in either Kindle or Paperback form, and I’ve linked to each individual one. Maybe they’ll grab you, maybe you’d be inclined to send one to a friend or to yourself. Either option finds me humbly saying thank you.
But, if you’re a fan of the paperbacks in the world, this month I’m doing something specifically for Tumblr: if you PM me and you’d like a copy, I’ll hook you up with a paperback for the price that I get author copies for. It’s $13.99 plus shipping if you order it through Amazon, but if you’re interested and you PM me, it’s $10 straight, no chaser. That covers the whole thing: the book, the shipping, the everything. Paypal is what I take and what works easiest as far as conducting business. Once the Paypal goes through, I’ll get that book shipped out ASAP.
Tumblr, all of you have always been real good to me and helped me out a lot during my adventure in self-publishing, so I just want to say thank you, and if any of you decide to grab a book through me this month, I also want to say thank you. I like the thought of making a profit, but more importantly I like the thought of other people reading what I write more, because the readers are the people who make it worth it. Thanks for reading, and Happy October!
Just a quick reminder!
I am not the phoenix rise
I am the ashes burning
slowly
I am the welt and flesh torn from weight rolled away
I am stand upon the shores where waves break
thundering upon the rock of solidity
I am howl
I am ignition when the bridges burn crumbling
I am terror, haunting, deliverance
always in the background, never announce, never far
the wings flap and I am held down to continue
I am change like the constant moon
a killing moon
a mourning moon
a devil’s moon
I am never the same, but always am
it is constant echo to be
what makes me, whatever brings me to this
following a sound of violence within
never a truth, just a thought, a simple realization
I am constant held like the rock
I am against the breakers
I am steadfast solid and never done
I am the ashes burn
waiting for ignition
I am not the phoenix rise
I give birth to it
Free ebook giveaway of my sci-fi/horror novel,The Icarus Void!
Today and tomorrow (16th and 17th), if you have a Kindle or Amazon app you can download and read my ebook for free. It’s the story of the Icarus, aship designed to dive into the heart of a star to collect scientific data for research. But when they discover an alien artifact hovering in low orbit of the Sun, the attempt to retrieve it pushes the crew to the breaking point. In a risky move, the crew brings the artifact onto the ship and begin to study it and discover the terrifying secret that it holds.
You can find it and download it here, and if it pleases you to read it, don’t forget to leave a review. Many thank yous in advance!
Quick reblog to signal boost to everyone! Apparently Icarus is doing really well over on Amazon UK, actually getting as high as number seven on the list of top free sci-fi downloads. I don’t know what I did to get such love from overseas, but thank you all for your support.
i do not know myself
not here, not anymore
miles to travel to the nearest rest
and miles back to home
a tender embrace is all i crave
not some water to taste
i have my nutrition
i have my health
but i do not know myself
not here, not anymorei am listen to the same song
seven times over
just to capture the weight of the love
and the feel of the memory
i am hidden away, tucked into
i am cognizant and aware
that is the worst of it
that i know
that i do not know
who i am anymoregive me paint to finger upon the walls
the texture is fragrant of old melancholy
and sprays with the abandon of dead anger
the kind that never leaves
because it has nowhere to go
give me paper to curl between my knuckles
the cuts to cleave the webs between
the only thing i am strong enough to bend
give me voice to hold back silent
because i am not to speak
your willing ears tremble with capture but
i am not to speak
give me out
give me out
give me plain escape
give me out into the air
but my wings clipped, i am no icarus
there is no fall
there is only the ache of the gaze to the sun
wishing to fly close enough to know
to know
we are become like gods
a burdened seed left within
to twist
and root
unfurling with tunneling mindset
into the minds, into the hearts
we are become like gods for we
are everywhere
are everything
the leaves sashay like the hem of your skirt
i see no stars, only your eyes
and hear only the trembling in your throat as you moan
whenever i pass the running river
folding over, the world is origami
the shape of our passion’s roots
furrowed tight into this world we have shaped, but not made
we make other things
over and over and over
we are become like gods, you and i
taking over this world
and in the background we are, unbeknownst, silent
like books of myth in the library
couched between the stories of other gods
and other lands and languages
who shaped the world as we have done
I don’t have a shadow tonight
the sun has gone down and I’m missing the stars tonight
the full moon’s hid it’s face behind the planet
and I’m without a glow.
The grass is green but the sky is grey tonight;
the way the stars are covered is no surprise tonight
there’s no cosmic magic without the view that I’ve had
and tonight I’ve got no view at all.
I just want to get back out into space tonight
and come round to visit the trees tonight
I want the rain to drop from the branches of the forest
and give me refreshment tonight.
All I want seems so simple when I think about it
it seems like I don’t have that much to ask for
until I remember that I just want the sunrise
and the sunset at the same time.
I just only want all the colors to come round and blend and mix
and make waves over the sky.
I only want the best damn view in the world for a couple hours a day
and the silent night of comfort when I sleep.
It’s not too much to ask for, but what do I know?
What do I know?
I know that I don’t have a shadow tonight
and that I’m all alone tonight
and that the sunshine’s on the other side of the Earth tonight
and that’s a hard thing to wrestle with.
we came here
with hope in our hearts
with silver in our wallets
and the weight of dead men on our backs
we came here to live
we live here to die
we were beasts before
hungry like wolves, leaping like foxes
our hunting ground staked, we waged war
the kind where all’s fair
and one takes and one gives
and one gives and one takes
over and over, surrounding, a circle
a hunger
our claws and teeth sharpened to perfection
tearing at skin and biting at lips
rolling muscles like open plains to run
we were beasts and we hunted each other
we ran each other down and rolled to the fight
and when we finished we lay, panting, exhausted
waiting to do it again
